
Being a perpetual student isn’t just something I stumbled into—it’s become part of my identity. It’s a lifelong commitment to curiosity, chaos, and the humbling reality that no matter how much I know, there’s always more to uncover. While most people view learning as a temporary phase before real life begins, for me, the pursuit of knowledge is real life.
Some people collect sneakers, others hoard houseplants; me? I collect knowledge. Not the kind that leads to a flashy degree or a high-paying job, but the kind that sends me spiraling into fascinating, late-night internet rabbit holes. One minute, I’m diving into a TED Talk on productivity; the next, I’m absorbed in research on how octopuses dream. My mind is like a browser with too many tabs open, half of them frozen, and one randomly playing jazz.
If you’ve ever attempted to follow a study plan, only to abandon it five minutes later because you found the perfect note-taking technique, then you’re already familiar with my daily routine. Welcome to life as a perpetual student.
Morning: The Grand Learning Plans
The day starts with good intentions. Maybe today, I’ll finally finish that online course I started six months ago. Or perhaps I’ll finally read the 500-page book on philosophy I swore I’d devour last summer. The morning coffee fuels the enthusiasm as I craft a perfectly structured study plan with detailed time slots.
Five minutes in, I remember an interesting TED Talk I saved last week. Surely, a 15-minute detour won’t hurt. That talk leads to a podcast episode, which leads to a research paper, which leads to… well, suddenly it’s lunchtime. The carefully planned study schedule? Down the drain.
Afternoon: The Productivity Illusion
Determined to regain control, I sit down with my laptop, ready to focus. But wait—shouldn’t I research “the best scientifically proven study techniques”? A quick Google search turns into an hour-long deep dive into learning methodologies, from Feynman to the Pomodoro, I now have an entirely new system in place, complete with color-coded notes and a motivational playlist.
But by the time I’m ready to implement it, I’m exhausted. I decide: a short break won’t hurt. Just a little YouTube documentary to refresh my mind… next thing I know, I’m ten minutes into watching medieval peasants making bread. How did I get here?
Evening: The Existential Crisis
As the sun sets, I finally return to my original study plan. But now, an overwhelming sense of intellectual inadequacy creeps in. How do people master subjects so quickly? Why does my brain feel like a browser with 37 tabs open, with only one loading?
I contemplate whether I should pursue another degree. Maybe I should learn a new language. Take up quantum physics? For fun? The cycle continues as I add more books, courses, and articles to my ever-growing backlog.
Night: Acceptance & Repeat
Lying in bed, I reflect on the day. I may not have completed my original plan, but I did learn something new. And that’s the beauty of being a perpetual student—there’s no final destination, just an endless adventure of discovery.
As I close my eyes, I promise myself that tomorrow I’ll stick to the study plan. But deep down, I know the first thing I’ll do in the morning is Google, “how can I focus?”
And so, the cycle continues.

Refilwe Queen
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Refilwe Queen is a passionate freelance writer dedicated to exploring the complexities of human existence through her work. She brings a fresh perspective to storytelling, blending creativity with thoughtful analysis to create content that engages and inspires. Driven by an insatiable curiosity, Refilwe seeks to uncover new ideas and share insights that encourage others to think deeply and live authentically.
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